Balance. Purpose. Enlightenment.
If you are afraid of something, you give it power over you. Moroccan Saying
One intriguing fact of life is how we can envelop ourselves in failure by trying to avoid it. We’ve heard that fear is right up there with love in its intensity and all-consuming effects. And the Lemurian Philosophy goes so far as to state that fear is our most powerful emotion, and that fear attracts its object. But such fear has to be experienced before we can fully understand its power and avoid drawing such negativity into our lives.
I discovered this one day when I was working alone in our crafts shop, finishing a wooden pedestal for a music stand. We had been advised that a reporter from our local paper was visiting Gateway to gather information for an article she was writing about the Lemurian Fellowship. I wanted to be working on this pedestal so, if she asked, I could tell her what I was doing and answer any questions she might have. But anxiety was building as I concentrated on my work more than usual, hoping not to make a mistake. But evidently, the hope that I wouldn’t wasn’t as strong as the fear that I would!
Very slowly, I routed out three equal-length groves in the bottom of the pedestal where the legs would be attached. As I heard voices announcing that the visitor and members of the staff were approaching, I glanced down at one of the cut groves, only to notice it was a half-inch longer than required! Anxiety was replaced by panic! How could I have made this simple, stupid mistake when I focused such time and attention on getting it done right? But there was no time to address this question as I tried to recover my composure and attend to our visitor as the group arrived. Somehow, I did, answering the few questions she asked.
Only in reliving this experience later did I realize that my intense concern about making a mistake actually created that very mistake. And as if this discovery was not devastating enough, I made another equally as important . . . my concern was focused not only on avoiding a mistake, but also on how any mistake would reflect on me. So instead of providing an interesting and informative experience for our visitor to enhance what she might write about the Lemurian Crafts, I was worried mostly about myself.
I relive these lessons many times, hoping their message is slowly being absorbed. I try to envision what I want in my crafts work and my life, and think less and less about what I don’t want. I know that fear attracts its object, but so do confidence, hope, and love!
Copyright © 2017 Lemurian Fellowship
Comments are closed.
Surely, the universe re-produces what we focus our minds on, be it fear or hope.
“Think about what you DO want!” These words face me, daily, as I sit at my desk. A reminder I jotted down, after a wonderful letter from my Fellowship teachers helping me cope with a particularly trying time. Freeing myself from fear, particularly fear of failure, is, for me, a lifelong task! But these simple words bring more successes than I can tell. Thank you for relating your experience, and the deeper insight your thoughts revealed. I too find that this self concerm, wanting to project a successful image, complicates things!
A lifelong task for me, too! Once the Lemurian Philosophy and Fellowship helped me to see more clearly how I hold myself back through fear, I found just how difficult it can be to overcome habitual negative thinking. Nonetheless, I am now able to recognize it more easily and take conscious steps to minimize it and spend my efforts thinking about what I do want.
Confidence, hope and love most certainly can conquer fear, but there is another attribute that is helpful as well.
I always remember the story of the Disciples on the Sea of Galilee when the storm came up and they were very afraid. Christ came walking on the water towards them and called Peter to come to Him. Peter got out of the boat and made it part of the way, but his fear got the best of him and he began to sink. Christ came and pulled him out saying, “O ye of little faith! Why did you doubt?”, and got in the boat with him.
We have a long way to go to be able to really take Christ’s words to heart and benefit accordingly, but this example shows that faith can do wonders if we put our minds to work and don’t talk ourselves out of it!